Devotional: A Joyful Mess
One thing I love most about Jesus is His ability to use even the messiest person in really cool ways. Just look at Paul, David, Peter, the Samaritan woman at the well. The Bible is full of fascinating accounts of imperfect, unqualified people who were transformed and used in mighty ways by God. It’s absolutely incredible.
I don’t know about you, but I’ve wasted a lot of years wishing I was different. Wishing I wasn’t such a deep feeling, emotional personal. Wishing my brain worked differently and I wasn’t so prone to things like overthinking or worry. The valleys I’ve walked through this year have definitely brought a lot of moments of wishing I was different. But a few weeks ago I finally surrendered to God’s design and accepted who I am and how He made me. I now realize the messy and imperfect parts of who I am were created to bring me closer to Him and remind me of my daily need for God. My weaknesses were assigned to me and there is a divine purpose in all of it.
“That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”2 Corinthians 12:10
As difficult as it can be to accept our weaknesses or even go so far to view our struggles with a grateful heart, one thing I know for sure is that Jesus shows up in the mess. And in that mess is where I’ve grown the closest to Him. In the mess, I’ve been desperate for Him. In the mess, I’ve learned the most about Him. And if I was a perfect person, without any struggles, I’d be far less likely to look to God for strength, peace, or guidance. I’d be fooled by the false idea that I’m strong enough to do this life on my own.
So if the end result of my flaws is that I grow closer to God, I can be grateful for these things. And at the same time I can continue to work on myself every day, striving to live a life worthy of my calling (Ephesians 4:1). And I want to encourage you to do the same–improve what you can, but remember that even with your weaknesses and imperfections, you are who God says you are. You are loved. Chosen. Cherished. Redeemed. Ransomed. Set free. Hallelujah!